As I am writing this, I still couldn't believe what had just happened. He has proven it AGAIN, my mighty God is so REAL and timely!
It was about 4pm when I finished my work and there I was, hopping onto bus 50 from my workplace to town to get a gift for my friend. After putting my heavy bag and folder next to my seat, I continued chit chatting with my sis on the phone till I arrived the last bus stop- Albert Square! It was drizzling and thus I tried to hurried my steps to avoid the rain. Phew, finally arrived Arndale and happily heading towards the shop and suddenly I realised, why my hand is empty? I remember bringing my yellow folder out this morning and WHERE HAS IT GONE now?!??!
Panic panic panic...palpitations and OMGIeeee. I must have left it in the bus when I was rushing off just now....why this kinda carelessness must happened at this time when it's my final 2 weeks as a medical student?! I have got all my supervisors' assessment forms, elective report, feedbacks, homework, timetables and etc...THAT folder is my EVERYTHING now in order to GRADUATE! ARGH...frustrated and angry at myself, WHY ARE YOU SO CARELESS, ANGELENE...Quickly I ran to the bus conductor at the bus stop and begged him to call ALL bus 50 drivers to look out for this YELLOW folder!!!
10 minutes passed, nobody responded to the call, I was then asked to call the general office bout 630pm when everyone changes their shift. Disappointed, I dreaded my feet towards the shop again to get the pressie since nothing could be done now. I was hoping a kind soul will return my file back ASAP. After paying for the gift, I decided to take the bus home *allright, I need to take bus 50 back home as well, but I had to walk a distance to the particular bus stop near Chinatown*
As I was about to reach the bus stop, bus 50 just gone passed..my goodness, I just missed the bus! And it was drizzling a bit. ARgh, again I felt, am such unlucky ey today! Then I reached out for the pressie I bought and to my surprise, the cashier lady wrapped the WRONG model for me!!!! wah....at that point I was about to shout! WHAT has gone wrong man...Deep in my thought, I was just telling myself, bad things never happened in singular form, they must come ALL together! Allright, now I need to walk another 15 minutes, back to Arndale to exchange this....Got there, done the exchange and took another 15 mins walk back to the station to catch the bus. And guess what, another bus 50 just gone by AGAIN! Can you feel the frustrations in me at that moment of time?!
--> I hv just lost my folder which is sooOo important, missed 2 busses in a row and the stuff I bought got mixed up and I had to return to the shop to exchange it! What a unfortunate day!!!
At that point, I was asking God:' God, I dunoo what went wrong today and why You allow all these misfortune things to happen all at once?Do You not care about me? Do You not know that the file is so imporatnet to me? WHY?! But now, I just hope that somebody will return me the folder soon, it's ok if it's not today or tomorrow, but at least there will be somebody who will pick up the folder and gave it to the bus driver so that I can collect it later, please please please, do some miracle." 10 minutes passed and there came my bus 50...
YOU WONT BELIEVE THIS, as I stepped into that bus, I could faintly recognise the bus driver..he looks familiar..I couldn't believe my eyes..IT WAS THE SAME BUS DRIVER I met 2 hours ago! Which mean, I am now in the SAME bus 2 hours ago...and when I showed him my bus pass, I spotted my bright yellow folder underneath his seat...MY GOODNESS, WHAT are the ODDs of me getting into the SAME bus? There are like upteen of busses 50, travelling up and down from town to East Disdsbury daily and there I was, standing in the SAME bus and FOUND my yellow folder!!!!!! God, You must be joking...HOW COULD THIS HAPPENED!!?
Then I sat down and I was reminded again that God cares and He knows what He is doing! Mere coincident, NEVER!What if I got into any of the 2 buses earlier on? What would have happened if the cashier lady didn't give me the wrong stuff? What if I decided to exchange the wrong gift some other day? All the 'what ifs' kept playing in my mind!!' .. No matter how good your timing is, you can never fight my All Mighty God's perfect timing! Ecclesiastes 3:11 says: He has made everything beautiful in its time. Maybe I was quite disturbed by my accomodation in Wigan recently and was very worried about it and thus He wanted something to remind me to surrender. I needed Him to knock on my head and tell me to let go all worries but let God instead, who will provide! He will only give the BEST to us because HE CARES and HE LOVES us. And so, I must remind ALL my friends out there, be it preparing for exams or having some hard times, BEAR in mind that God knows every single tears you cry and every difficulties you're going through. He loves you and He CARES. Eventhough you felt that nobody in the world loves you or understand you or all are against you, fear not because the only person that you need is GOD and He will never leave you or forsake you because He loves you as who you are!
so yea, as careless as I am, the God who made me is never slow in doing His thing. Though I'm a constant worrier, He never fails to calm me down. Am so excited to share what He has done today and I'm sure He will do the same to you who believe:) I'm just too blessed to bless..
wasSup Doc: I call on you, O God, for you will answer me; give ear to me and hear my prayer. Show the wonder of Your great love, you save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes. Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings.
Psalm 17: 6-8