Friday, July 06, 2007

The Burden of WORRY...

MERDEKA!!
EOS 3 is finally OVER!
Hmm, really hard to believe i actually went through the paper d..
It seems so impossible for me to go through it.

Just a little sharing how my life was b4 EOS 3..
1)S-U-I-C-I-D-A-L-- i juz feel like jumping off from 14th floor when the panicness n fear arise..
2)Sticking my face to the lecture notes ONLY from 7.30am to 12.30am EVERYDAY(5 weeks)...
3)Makan-ing my meals in half an hour time- every second is precious!
4)broke down in tears and had mental blocks a few days just b4 the exam...The Stress level in me was just unbearable, the tears could just trickled down my cheeks out of a sudden when the fear conquered....
5)NO movies, NO shopping, NO good food(Everday mixed rice in cafetaria until SIEN d), NO slacking, NO internet and NO CHILLING!!
6)put on lots of EXTRA weight during this time coz i just eat, sit, study and sleep..routinely for the past 5 weeks:(
7)RELYING ON GOD MORE...This battle is TOO DIFFICULT for me to fight alone. It's by trusting in HIM, havin faith in HIS promises and just LET HIM LEADs....To be honest, i'm a BIG WORRIER. Worried of a lot of things - All the 'Whaddifs and Howells' incidences cant stop playing in my mind, this is because i'm lacking of CONFIDENCE in my LORD. ONLY the LORD Jesus can share this burden of WORRY in me.......Thank you Father:):)
In CHRIST alone, I place my TRUST

p/s:
Thanks to all of you out there who have been constantly praying for me....thanks for all the encouragements you have given me so that i cud stay strong and move on throughout the week.....


wasSup Doc: "We do not need to know what will happen tomorrow. We only need to know He leads us and "we will find grace to help us when we need it" (Hebrews 4:16)

**Special Birthday wishes to XANDRA ANG...May you have a blessed year ahead k:)U've been a great blessing to the people around you,esp me:):)Stay Young n Pretty!**

2 comments:

*jeSSicA* said...

next time u cannot stay in such high apartment eh...make u have that suicidal thinking! lol

now i start worry for my exam..

shaz said...

hey! strike away number 1.. i'll cry if you do that! haha.. i know you're kidding anyway. you love god too much to do that dont you :))

dont cry! everybody's on ur side. you just do your best, god will take care of the rest. it's amazing how you set aside time just to study and achieve good results.. i can never do that even if i want to. weak willpower. always get distracted! >_<
which is also why i'm not in science field. ;)

love u girl. just have faith in Him ok :)