If only..

One day, maybe... that one day you would remember who I am.

Just wanted to say this....

💛MSYU VMVM💛

Is this how it looked like?

We never got round eating this ey 😋

*putting an end to this.......**

WasSup Doc:  There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear 1 John 4:18

Greetings of 2017

A new resolution for 2017, I guess.
To re-start writing or pen down some thoughts of mine.


Hello world.
It has been a while since my last entry.


Out of curiosity and so revisited the blog I started in 2006 and wow, it still allows me to log in and so, here is it. Writing the 1st post of 2017.


Probably nobody reading it now but hey ho, who cares, a personal read for myself 10 years down the road then.


10 years ago, it was a gungho moment to start writing.
All my beloved Uni mates were writing actively and so I joined the bandwagon of doing so. *NO REGRETS :)*


10 years later, I read all those posts I wrote and realised the importance of penning stuff down and see how much I have grown. emotionally, physically and spiritually.


A little bit of wrinkles here and there, but that just telling me that I have been through up and down.
Here I am, still alive and well, by God's amazing grace.

Goodbye 2016. Hello 2017

WasSup Doc: Take a leap of faith and begin this wondrous new year by believing. Believe in yourself. And believe that there is a loving Source- a Sower of Dreams - Just waiting to be asked to help you make your dreams come true.

What was the MIRACLE?

This was it. Had a few friends asking what was the miracle that I mentioned in FB the other day and thought I would just penned it down on my blog, reminding myself as well about His goodness and He answered my prayer in my little prayer book :]

A project about patients' safety was accepted by an international health forum in London for a poster presentation last month. Praise the Lord for this oppotunity, but at the sametime, it was a huge dilemma for my colleague and myself who are keen to go, because the course fees itself cost a BOMB! a 3 days course cost £917 per person and bear in mind, this is just the course fees. Not including the accomodation, transport fare, and meals, it's LONDON we are talking here ey. But after much discussion, we decided to just go for it anyway because it is a once in a lifetime opportunity, how often does our work get recognised? Ermm, very unlikely I guess, unless you have a successful project with very influential supervisor. In the end we decided tp pay the course fees using our own pocket money, just waiting to attend the forum in April 2013 then. Informed Mel that I will be bunking at hers whilst am there to save cost :P

Just last week, I received an email from the supervisor who oversees us about thie project. He delivered a GOOD news to us, saying that Wigan NHS trust is willing to sponsor us to attend this forum AND accomodation included. Rubbed my eyes and read again, yes, it is correct. The trust is going to fund for us to attend this course and covering the 3 days accomodation as well. Wow WOW WOOWW!! *background info: If you have not already known, NHS in the UK is having financial crisis, with million of debts, to get anything funded, chances are near to zero. Can be described like squeezing water from a stone. The main aim of most trusts at present is to cut cost, save money, reduce admissions. Each and every penny is CRUCIAL to them!* So to get it FULLY funded, it's definitely a God's intervention. PLUS, I remembered writing in down last month on my prayer request book: Sponsorship to IHI forum. Viola, God just performed a miracle for me. *ticked* Uber awesome mowseome! He has indeed looked after me well :)

So peeps, note of encouragement. Ask and you will receive. He might not answer your prayer immediately, but in His time. So ASK and BELIEVE. :)

xx When all you have is Jesus, He is all you need xx

WasSup Doc: Statement above ;)

Sunday JOY..

I look forward to Sundays:) A day we can go to church and meet God's people, sing His praises and worship Him. Also, seeing my lovely kiddies in Sunday School. Guess it's one RIGHT decision I made this academic year, to serve Him in this ministry! The joy of seeing them learn about God, remembering bible verses and the conversations we shared over one and half hours, it's just bliss to me. 

Lunch time with kiddies, precious. The lunch bags unite:)

Before class starts, the children will have their lunch break in the canteen. Most of them have their lunch packed nicely by their dedicated mums. Me being the 'little kid wanna be' would packed my own lunch and tucked it into my lovely lunch bag [am SO INTO Lunch bags now, oh dear me, obsessed!] and share this precious time, eating with them, having small chit chat sessions about how their week went and comparing our food:P We would talk about the biggest fish in the sea, their Mandarin classes, and spicy seaweed they are munching! Muakakkkaa...fun times.com!

Right, just a small sharing about my class today. I am teaching class 1 at the moment (5-6 years old). Lesson today was about Abraham, and I had to teach them the song 'Father Abraham' with ACTIONS! Hahahaha...right arm, left arm, right leg, left leg, chin up and turn around..a good workout for me but kids were so enthu and energetic! Must admit, me is one old woman, after 2 rounds of the song, am breathless! Blame on me have to sing out loud and shout and action! Multitasking but oh my my, i had so much fun! It's been a while. To see the kids smile, the laughter, the joy in them and singing God's songs is just bliss. 

On top of that, when a child unexpectedly could recite word for word of a bible verse I taught last week caught me by surprise that he actually could remember!! Sherlyn just randomly asked the class:' Who can remember the verse we learned last week.' This 5 years old Chinese boy in class, *not paying attention in class most of the time as he was playing with his friend* quickly raised his hands and answered " We will serve the Lord our God, we will obey Him, Joshua 24:24!!! And that kept Sherlyn and myself speechless and jaw wide opened..WOW, 5 stars for you, Jordie! NOTE, he is just 5! ;) Effort paid off!

So class ended with some bible stories and drawings. The best part is, these small little tiny kids, will drag their big bulky fleece coat [thanks to UK cold weather!] and trying to put them on, so me being the mummy will go up to them and zip up for them, putting on their hats and gloves, and reminding them to be a good boy/girl this coming week and rmb to pray! With their still soft voices, they will reply 'Yes miss. See you!' Awww....heart melts 99! Kill me, kill me, kill me. They are so adorable!

Sometimes, it really needs the faith of a child to remind me that's all I need to trust and believe God, who can do all things for me. Sunday school is where I myself is learning more about Christ, His people and how His promises are REAL. I <3 font="font" nbsp="nbsp" school="school" sunday="sunday">

WasSup Doc: We will serve the Lord our God, we will obey Him. Joshua 24:24. Give me a patient heart, to serve you in this ministry :)

I'm coming home!

It's official, it's confirmed:) 

I AM COMING home to Malaysia for Chinese New Year! Hooray...

Say I am spoilt, say I am wasting money$$, 3 months apart and I am going back again.

oh who cares, I do not want to be staying alone in this freezing country celebrating CNY alone! *Bluek*!

Cant wait to make noise with the TEO FAM, and eat the glorious CNY food! 

excited.com :)

Cant wait to see this signboard AGAIN at KLIA!

 HAPPIEST decision made :)

But before that, few job interviews to conquer! 

Smile, HE holds my future ^_^

wasSup Doc: 'Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.' Proverbs 16:3.

It's the verse of the day on my phone. Timely indeed :D

Dissapointed with myself..

It has been a maniac day at GP surgery today. Full clinic for morning and afternoon sessions.

Got home about 615pm, when I was supposed to finish at 5pm.

Had to walk 45 minutes under the rain to visit a 90 years old lady. Despite had to go through this pathetic weather, glad that when I leave her home, she still smile and wave me goodbye. That's all matters.

But on top of that, something else happened today and it wasn't pleasant :'(

It just broke my heart and being qualified for almost a year half now, missing something important when examining a patient wasn't a good feeling at all. felt so sorry for the patient and wished I could have done better. Let myself down tremendously.

Everyday when I go to work, I am reminded that God has given me these hands to touch lives and to bless others. I aimed NOT to bring harm to the patients I see but to bring them comfort and peace.

 A joyful heart, that's all I need to start my day off!

wasSup Doc: oh Lord, enable me to fulfill my medical calling in love, wisdom and integrity. Grant me sincerity in all that I say and do. Strengthen me to persevere in the face of fatigue. Lead me by Your spirit in my daily work.

ANNOYED!!

Cant help but just have to SCREAM MY LUNGS out, because of being uber annoyed with my programme coordinator!

Asked my GP practice manager if I can combined 2 of my half days to become one OFF day, so that I can extend my stay(from 12 days to 14 days) back in Malaysia when I return in Feb, and she has kindly said 'not a problem'! Then she thought, hmm, maybe she should ask my programme coordinator.

Next reply my practice manager got from my programme director was that 'NO, Angelene is not allowed to do so because it will then breach her working hours for the week!"

So my practice manager came and apologies for not double checking with her earlier! *Speechless me*!

Oh my goodness, breach my working hours!? Oh Please, GP posting is the chillest posting EVER, u only work 9-5pm, weekdays and gets Wednesday off for teaching and Thursday OFF doing NOTHING. All I requested was to work through all my Thursday, so that I can combined my half days and become one FULL DAY OFF! What is so difficult with that? I am paying back the working hours! It's not like I am skyving or being lazy, I AM PROPERLY working my hours and paying them proper. Now you worried I am OVERWORK in a 9-5pm, office like setting job?! Seriously...patient's safety is NOT compromised at all!

Just little request as such, you have made into such big hoohaa and forwarded to my programme director!? Arghh.....do you need to do that, honestly? Everybody in the whole trust IS, ALREADY DONE that and now you say NOO! SUPER FRUSTRATED. Somebody KILL ME ALIVE! Want to cry but patients still waiting for me to be seen. Life oh life..God why You put such hurdle in my life at this point of time. I really dun and will never get it. 

Don't mess around with me, I am not easily being bullied! *Roar!*

 FRUSTRATIONS 99!!

waSsup Doc: Trying to understand is like straining through muddy water. Be still and allow the mud to settle. I am learning. 

Reflections of 2012

2012 gone by so quick and it's already... HELLO 2013!! Just thought of penning down some highlights of 2012, so that when I look back about the happenings within this year, it's gonna be a bitter sweet moment! Right, let's begin with some fun and exciting things I did throughout the year of 2012. No doubt, the EXTENSIVE traveling experiences TOPPED the chart!

HOLIDAYs are always the FUNNEST!

The trio started the year, invading Budapest, Hungary. Braving through the extreme weather, we shared so much laughter together:)

During the second month, we organised a trip down south, to explore the legendary Stonenage & Stratford-upon-Avon. Also, trip ended with a nice visit to this limestones town, called Cotswolds.

Gurls just want to have fun!!! Strictly for gurls' fellowship only! Train ride to Llandudno, up to WALES! Adventurous indeed!

Fun-filled roadtrip all the way to CORNWALL with the most amazing church mates! OGs ROCKS!

THE MUST MENTION, lifetime dream came true moment, when all the picturesque pics of Niagara Falls lied just infront of my eyes! *in awe of His beautiful creation*

Stepped into the GIANT CITY, NEW YORK! Woah, never in my right mind would think I am going to this city so soon, but there you go, never say never! Thanks to Lily's sister graduation during this summer and viola, a good reason to invade!

The whole year ended with a trip to Krabi with family! Highlight of course, quality time spent back home, catching up with friends and family, no doubt will be the BEST holiday of all:)

Achievements of the year

FINALLY! Passed my UK driving test..ehem, it's MANUAL k! I think i took a good 3 months to polish up my driving skills after not driving for a good 6 years! Very proud of myself, but in the sametime, meaning burning a hole in my pocket because the lessons are so uber EXPENSIVE! 

Successfully completed first year of houseman and moved on to becoming a second year doctor! Despite the heavier responsibility that we have to bear, work is always never ending fun. With loads of unexpected experience and opportunities, I could only give ALL GLORY to God who has opened doors for me. Of course there are low moments, stress and extra working hours to whine about, but where on earth there is job in this world that just requires u sitting in the office and do nothing, right!

Very pleased to finally get the Medics Fellowship kick starting. We are just a bunch of doctors, wanting to keep each other accountable, and walk a close spiritual journey with God. Glad that everybody is keen on this, and we're taking baby steps to explore the great adventure God has instored for us!

A neonatal audit that I participated with Dr Zipitis was nominated for 'Recognising Excellence Award' organised by the hospital. No expectations of course, but attended the gala dinner just for mere experience. But subsequently the similar audit won a runner-up place in another local trust event- Best Clinical Audit event! If you were to ask me whether I have high hope when I first started doing this audit, I would say NO, then again who am I to say NO when our Father said YES! There you go...He is in control!

Farewell moments

Saying 'goodbye' to this lad wasn't easy. Cheah is like my little brother in Manchester. He would call me 'DaJe' in church and has been a great help throughout the past 4 years. Everytime I ask for a favour, he would be the first to say 'Yes'. Could rmb vividly he is the one who has been helping me moving stuff from one place to another, EVEN as far as to Wigan! :'( He graduated this year and decided to go back Malaysia. Best wishes, Cheah!

Year 2012 ended with a BANG, celebrated this big day with some close friends from church. Cooking for such big crowd was not easy but managed it well in the end and it was SO WORTH IT. It will never be the same if there weren't these people who has made my life in Manchester easier, FUN-er, and noisier :)

A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, can be my world. THANK YOU, guys for being such amazing friends!

Righty HO! There goes some highlights of year 2012!

I personally think that 2012 has been a great year, with loads of exciting moments and have grown spiritually closer with God. He has been really faithful, granting favours upon me, allowing me to meet amazing people who has given me much support throughout this journey. Many thanks for the prayers uttered for me. Can't wait to see how 2013 will be but pretty sure it is going to be another year full of grace and His favours. Things are just getting BETTER each year, ey! Be positive because God is a loving God!

The verse that I cling on tightly is from the book of Psalm 130:5- "I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in His word I put my hope. My souls waits for the Lord."



wasSup Doc:
Cheers to 2012. So, let's stir some FIRE into year 2013!
SHOUT AND REJOICE!

Family time..

I just came back from Malaysia...about a month ago? And now, I am thinking and planning to go back again. It's always good to be home. Just staying at home is pure joy! But need to save up some money first before next return!

Back to the cold gloomy Manchester now. Sky gets dark at 4pm. Not nice..and have to wear like 4 layers out now..burr..5th year in the UK, and still not getting use to this freezing weather.

Lurve them much!

So what am I up so far...this phase of my life is..TRUSTING GOD.

Obs and Gyn is coming to an end. After 4 months of constant on calls..I actually enjoys the adrenaline rush moments in labour ward! I was scared when pregnant mumsies come through that door for reassurance that their babies are fine..when breaking that bad news of miscarriage was terrifying. But over the months I learned that God gives and takes away, there is nothing the mum can do differently to salvage that pregnancy. All I have to do is comfort them and provide them with emotional support.

Lurve this job, but oh no, am not going to do this as a career, it's just too much of legal issues revolving around this specialty..Muakkakaka

Now coming back to the theme of trusting God.

Job application for next academic year opens!Oh this really have to rely on His grace for provision, for open doors. Questions on that applciation form are just so complicated... :( So yea, will have to trust in Him for His provision, He is Jehovah Jireh, our provider, so yups, He already has the BEST job prepared for me:) 'Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge' Psalm 62:8 

 1st ever group pic of MCCC Medics:) We're starting a fellowship group in MCCC. We have medicine as common background, and we decided to come together as a body of Christ to support each other spiritually in our walk with God. We are taking baby steps in this, but hopefully we are able to experience God as one group, bringing glory to His kingdom, and empower ourselves with His goodness and mercy. Let's pray things will go well and we are able to meet regularly despite the busy schedule we all have! :D

Wokay, better get back to work now:) It's been great shout out here!

Had a great night out with my fellow Wiganers @ Nando's, our favourite hang out place, with loads of secrets shared! Just amazing how you can find amazing friends with similar interests and just LOL whole night! Love you guys, loads!





WasSup Doc: Trust and Obey..for there's no other way, but to TRUST and OBEY HIM!

TIME flies...!

Indeed, this one year passed by SO QUICK! I'm done for my first year as a DR, and officially received my GMC registration! Phew..thank GOD for His faithfulness! I don't think I can survive this whole year without His grace. It's been a whole new of experience, taking the full responsibility as a Dr and managing human LIVES. A great one year, finding feet in this MEDICAL world and learning to be more confident in making decisions and equipping myself with up-to-date knowledge!

My beloved colleague in Breast team, Cat! A great person to work with!
Efficient, quick and most importantly very reliable! I was so touched when she rushed back from Pre-op clinic to hospital, just to give me a hand when she realised poor me had to cover the whole ward all by myself!

4 months in Breast and General surgery was the BEST time I had! The consultants I worked with were the friendliest surgeons I have ever met.

As a celebration, the Wiganers FY1s had a mini gathering and pub quiz!The gamemasters: Anthony and Tom!

One of their question was this:
" Angelene Teo is a beautiful name, but anyone knows what does TEO mean?"
When I heard that question, I was stunned..that is my surname and i myself have no idea what it meant! That's my great-grandfather's surname..any meaning? Hah...I dun think so!
But GUESS WHAT, they found out that...TEO in Greek means Gift of God! How amazing is that! :)
My team..AWESOME BADASS!
Had a fun night out with my fellow colleagues as a 'graduation' of our first year FY~! Well done guys! :)


Officially an SHO in Obs&Gyn. Guess what, am starting my night shifts next week and boy that is so going to be GG.com because me being the old lady will start yawning by 11pm! How am I going to stay up whole night and run around in hospital reviewing sickies...but I think the adrenaline rush I get from the numerous bleep will keep me awake! My biology clock gonna be maniac soon!
Please keep me in prayer, will ya! oh Lord, cover me with strength to sustain this whole one week.

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Had an indoor picnic at Uncle Seng Yang's house last Sunday. Made some simple tuna maki rolls for the group. It has been ages since I last made one but all in all, SATISFACTORY outcome:)
How I wish British summer is longer and SUNNIER. Didnt have a chance for an outdoor BBQ this year! :'(
Thanks to the wet rain and busy weekends commitment.

i like sushi.com!

hmmm...thought of the week:
Been watching Masterchef Australia lately. Somehow wished I am a good cook. Feel like enrolling myself in a cooking course and learned the skills to be a proffesional chef! I want to cook like Emmanuel Stroobant! His slick skills in cutting the leek, the seriousness pierced through those eyes, dishing up the perfect plate of appetizer..am in love with him! :P *in my dream*I did try...Braised teriyaki salmon with roasted peppered asparagus! Haha..simple lar, starting my baby steps in cooking! *pat myself on the shoulder*
By the way, worth to mention about a giveaway from Bento USA. Click this link-> All things for Sale for further rules regarding the AMAZING, GENEROUS gifts they are offering. Useful kits for packing lunch:)

Anyway, back to reality. Olympics fever is all over UK! Yesh..in my heart I am supporting the CHINESE! Lol...swimmer YeShiWen is amazingly SLICK! In the meantime, praying hard for Datuk Lee to win a GOLD Medal for Msia in badminton and make history! Malaysia Boleh!

wokay. It's weekend and I am loving it because it's time to SKYPE with my parents back home. Love them to bits! If it wasnt for my job, I will be home by NOW! :'(





wasSup Doc: "And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.-Galatians 6:9"

The BFF's birthday!

It was Dr Chan's birthday last Monday!

Of course, being her good good friend, I must organise smth for her right.
It has been the 4th year in UK and usually during her birthday for the past few years, it is either she will be home by now, OR all students will not be around anymore.
As for this year, we don't have summer holidays anymore, and most students graduated this year, so they were here in UK a whee bit longer, and thus the surprise party WAS POSSIBLE :)

If there is smth you need to know about her, u MUST know..this lady LOVES Nando's and Strawberry cheesecake! Allright, venue sorted, birthday cake sorted! Even before her big day, she has been saying to us that her wish is to have a bday party in Nando's! *Her wish came true* Teehee..The amazing PurelyStrawberry Cheesecake from The English Cheesecake company! *Checked*
*Got it delivered to Nicola's house the day before so that the housemate wont find out!*

So I managed to gathered a group of close friends from church and came together for this lovely luncheon at Nando's after church service:)

Church friends who made it for the party! Well done peeps!

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Just before the big day, we had a lunch date together at Giovannis. Had some salmon avocado sandwiches and cream cakes:) It's the USUAL Saturday date we both have since we started work. Ah, how good it is to have a friend just to hang out with <3

we likey likey Saturday noon outing! :)

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On her real Birthday, we both had to work. But we managed to have a 3-course dinner after work @ Fat Olive!
the birthday treat! *AMAZING SINFUL RICH warm chocolate cake with pistachio ice cream*
Think this add on another kilo for this month..Ish..nvm, am on call TWICE this week..will try to run more whilst in hospital then! Lol..
As for my personal gift for her...a scrap book of PRICELESS memories:) *she did one for me for my last bday, so tot of putting one together for her as well* Stressed me out slightly coz the pics I ordered arrived so uber LATE! but nvm nvm, still make it on time but had to lie to her so many times..as WHY I KEPT hiding in my room! Lol...my favourite last page of the masterpiece!

so yea...my beloved housemate just turned to a quarter of century! Yay!
Just like when we were kids we always say: Friends forever, forget you never!

May this year be a year of blessings and GREAT surprises from our Heavenly Father.
That His Holy Spirit fill you up with strength and love, to glorify His name, to expand His kingdom, to testify His awesomeness and to be a witness of His holiness.
Let Him guide you to an exciting journey of mystery, but of promising future!
Put Him first and commit all your ways to God for He is a God who holds this world in His hands.
l.o.v.e. you, Sister :)





WasSup Doc: "Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up." Ecclesiastes 4: 9-10

thank you for being the friend that you are to me.

Breast team Night Out

My final 4 months as an FY1...ended with a BOOM with the Breast team :)
Consultants in this team are AWESOME.
Normally, when we say SURGEON, common characters among them? Hmm..Demanding, arrogant, OVER-confident..yadaa yadaa...no doubt, they have these thingy in common!
But as for the surgeons whom I worked with..NOTHING as such at all. They are the NICEST surgeons you could ever ask for.
Mr Prasad and Mr Deshpande, the nicest surgeons on earth. Smiley all the way, gentle and humble, ever willing to teach and get you involve! Super easy going and appreciate the work you have done! awww...am gonna tear now, thinking am leaving this team in few days time! So gonna miss them MUCH!

Had a farewell dinner today at a Chinese Buffet in Wigan! Hah, we had that event sponsored! Whee...FREE dinner with GREAT companions! Viola..Amazing night with the surgeons, breast care nurses and fellow junior doctors!

Breast team @ Wigan Infirmary
The few generations of Breast Team doctors, nurses, consultants and teehee, the sponsor of the event :)

Haha..they are never serious..*PEACE*
*Mr Deshpande (man in t-shirt sitting in the middle + Mr Prasad( man with peace hand sign)
THEY ARE the BEST people to work with!
Enjoyed my 4 months with them SO UBER much!

The current breast team..April - June 2012

This is wat the SURGEONS do..Hahha..cut each other up!
*Mr Prathap- Reg and Mr Prasad- Consultant*

4 months passed by so quick.
I'm very reluctant to leave this team.
Been a good posting with loads of hands on experiences.
Think it's because they deal with a very sensitive specialty, they're well trained to be very sensible, showing empathy and patients love them to bits!
I love working with them..

Breast cancer IS a big thing indeed. However, if these patients with breast cancer are managed appropriately, you see their lives CHANGED to be BETTER!
The effect of breast reconstructions after the mastectomies..AMAZING!

"A feel a day, keeps the doctors away! Think PINK"






Next job: Obs and Gyn!
Pregnant women, bring it on:)



wasSup doc: Recognizing the accomplishment of our past and Celebrating the possibilities for the future.

BUSY.com

Week started off with a day of annual leave..haha, thought it's going to be staying at home, watching tv, eating chips and CHILL..but oh NO, day started with going in to Audit department to collect data for a breast surgery audit! Argh...I've waited for the notes to arrive since a month ago, and all 70 notes arrived in ONE day..*smack head* and guess what, this audit is DUE for presentation in the surgery audit meeting THIS FRIDAY itself..GG.COM! Am in the midst of analysing the results now. *give me a 5 mins break to update my blog* Thank God that I had 2 days of leave..JUST in time to do my audit..wasted! If not, I've long planned a trip to somewhere...Lol! This is medicine for you. Never ending audits and presentations to improve the quality of care for patients! Efficiencies, patients safety, cost savings..yada yada...just have to LIVE with it!super untidy workplace..FLOOR is my new table!

But since travelling is my ultimate PASSION, Angie being Angie will still squeeze in minimal time to go somewhere! Blessed with friends with car who willingly drove us for a road trip and just last Saturday, we visited one of the prettiest lakes at Lake District, Grasmere!peace and tranquility only @ Grasmere
the gang who went:)
(Edwin, Jenny, Chew Fatt, Wilson, Cheah, Glenn, Eunice, Noel, Suwei, John and Nicola)

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Not to forget, last Monday was the BIG day of my beloved little brother, Cheah! He has always been a blessing to me whilst in Manchester. Since 3rd year, everytime we needed a help to move house, he would be the first to offer his help. Anyway, this boy graduated with 1st class honours in Aerospace engineering and topped his class! *PROUD*
Since I had already taken a day off, decided to hop onto the train to Manchester to attend his big day! Woohooo....Celebrations after 4 years of hard work!
Well done, fren!

am so gonna miss him when he leaves Manchester for good :'(!
*Best wishes*

your BIG day, our pride!

wokay dokay. final note here would be:
God is good, ALL THE TIME!
Thou shall not worry about tomorrow, for the all-known God is in control in the unknown future.
R&R in Him!







wasSup Doc: Dear Lord, please take away my burdens of worry. Help me find comfort in You and You alone. Amen.

Complaint..

4 moths after I moved on to my surgical ward, I heard from a friend recently that somebody made a complaint against me.
What is it about? I have no idea.
It kept me thinking, what have I done wrongly?
That patient was somebody I cared for wholeheartedly 4 months ago and to my surprise, the family lodged a complaint against me, a junior doctor, the consultant and the nurses from the ward. *I felt ashamed of myself. :'( *

Have I not done enough? What were their expectations? Why...just feel like crying my lungs out when I heard it. When all your hard work was not appreciated but being condemned, it makes me think..is it worth it?

dissapointed. devasated. utterly speechless.

Oh Lord, if any of my deeds is not pleasing in Your eyes, please show and guide me...
i need Your loving grace to survive.






waSsup Doc: I surrender all, my hands, my soul, my life...If this is Your will, Lord may I be a competent doctor who can touch souls.

Highlights of weekend on call

BOOM...ended weekend on call ALIVE.

Surgical weekends is NO comparison to medical on calls i must say.
Quiet-ER than usual.

1 referral out of these 2 days...not normal. But oh wells, that's me, being abundantly BLESSED!
Running up and down, for discharge letters, prescriptions and reviewing some sickIES in the ward.

Highlights? hmmm...
On Saturday, I was bleeped to do some bloods for this lady. I was told by staff nurse that she tried a few times. Unsuccessful. So I went with a mentality that she is going to be super hard to bleed.
I got hold of the smallest syringe and off I went to see her.
Family gathered around her..All eyes on me*Pressure + Pressure*
Saw her arms and hands..BRUISED all over *ADD ON PRessuRE!!*
I tied the tourniquet TIGHT..TAP TAP a bit with hope that some veins will pop out! Said a quiet prayer in my heart. Put on a big smile on my face and asked her..take a deep breath in..few moments later.. a very rigid vein appeared. *Angie is the happiest doctor now* Stabbed her ONCE and blood flowed into the tube! She said she did not feel a thing! *SuccEss!* I smiled.
She happy, family satisfied. I relieved!

Half an hour later, a nurse came and asked me if I'm on call on Sunday. I replied yess, and I asked why? She said, this patient wants to know if that 'Little Chinese doctor' can come and bleed her tomorrow. Hahahahahaha...*I just laughed to myself*
I indeed went and took some blood off her this morning, and she was UBER happy to see me ..Hah, I just made her day, i hope :]!


Her presence has made my weekend on call feeling much better :)
I survived 2 days on call.
no more for now.
*syiok*

wasSup Doc: Kindness is worth more than beauty ~

Impossible..is NOT in my dictionary!

that's right!

Am on-call over this weekend.
Today was day 1! Survived..:)

Achievement of the day was definitely spanking x2 GREEN cannulas into 2 different patients..Lol
*why so happy?* Coz I have never put such a big cannula into anybody as YET. size PINK is already a challenge.. call me coward previously, i dun care, i just dun wan go burst all my patients veins and gets nothing! And because I know the bigger needle u used, the more pain they get*considerate nyer mua*..but at least I have TRIED size GREEN and succeeded ey:) I am proud of myself. Period:)

Next up..nothing is IMPOSSIBLE until you have tried!
I was handed over by the day team that they have tried taking bloods from this patient and couldn't get any. They 'stabbed' her x7 today and nothing obtained! When I went into her room, I could see the distress in her, and kinda reluctant to let me try anmore. But I managed to persuade her to let me give it a go. Guess what, I got it in my FIRST ATTEMPT and she was impressed! Moral of the lesson is..NEVER SAY IMPOSSIBLE. Key is..U NEED TO FIND and BE PATIENT, the VEINS are there! *Vampire is my second name*!

2 more days to go....weekends on call..hmm..not something that I look forward to of course. Why? Because patients tend to get more poorly, with spikes of temp..??sepsis! then come these bunch of nurses bleeping you non stop for cannulas and bloods and prescriptions! 5 surgical wards..covered all by yourself, and on top of that..those GP referrals..hooray, more jobs for you, the junior-EST of all!

U're running like a headless chicken in the hospital, has anybody actually cares if you have eaten anything throughout the day..the answer is NO NO NO. You get bleeped to review a patient URGENTLY because he has not passed any urine, but did anybody realised the you yourself has not got time to go toilet as well or even have a sip of water?! Everybody just WANTs a piece of you and squeeze you DRY. This is how the hospital works. Not as glamorous as you think it will be. You work in a DRAMATIC environement...u wont believe how drame it can be..teehee ;)

Now, the doctors in UK recently had a strike. Of course, we working in the hospital are considered as providing emergency care, so we all had to go in as normal day.
But the strike was carried out for a reason. Basically, the government has extended our retirement age which is 68yo and decided to reduce the amount of pension that we're going to get after retirement. Our generation will be the one affected :'(
AGAIN, we doctors are being taken advantage. Sigh..pure BULLYING.
Imagine I have to work another 40++ years..Lol..gonna be a cool old grandma Dr doing rounds man!


Allright, I should really get some sleep now. *fingers crossed for a peaceful weekend*!





wasSup Doc: Seek and you will find ^_^

The reason my job is so satisfying..

A token of appreciation received from my patient's mum this morning.
*first box of choc in my career!*


This is why I feel all the hard work I've put in my job is worthwhile.
GO AWAY tiredness and frustrations with the NHS!
I still love my job!




now share the calories and joy!





wasSup Doc: I'm so blessed to bless. With my hands...Oh Lord, please use them!

Join the fun of the giveaway :)

Happy news. I just got signed off from my FY 1 coordinator recently. Interview went all right, and guess what, he asked me what is my hobby. I said: BENTO MAKING, and flipped my portfolio to the last page, showing him my creative creations for the last few years. I can see the shocked face in him, but before I left the room, he said..'keep up the good work. It helps to release some stress at work, right? *He smiled*! I felt relieved. Something to take pride of, indeed :PI'm now on a Salad marathon for lunch. Since my trip to USA, been indulging with big bowl of Salad for lunchie..yummy..love the multicolour effects of different salad! *Like*
Getting my Five-a-da quota of fruits and vege!

Moving on.

As usual, me being me..the competitive Angie Mangie will not give any chance away if I can win ANY giveaway that involves BENTO!

So I came across this blog recently, a Canadian gurl, Noire who is living in Japan at present ( oh boy, my FAVOURITE country in this entire GLOBE!) and yesh, she is giving out some KAWAII gifts from low and behold..JAPAN!

Do check out her link at Bunny&Spice to find out MORE DETAILS regarding the giveaway!

Not to forget another giveaway at Scrumptious Bento whom I just found out recently. Another amazing bento blogger with beautiful bento pics all over her blogs. Am super impressed with her master pieces :) Not only that, she has posted a few recipes to share too. CHECK it OUT! :P

Allrighty, back to work!
1 and a half more months to go and I will be an..SHO!? *mixed feelings*









watsSup Doc: A Christian life is not a sprint, but a marathon.
Despite so, I am loving this long journey
xxx

ZANG TOI's studio @ New York City!

ALOHA...this special entrance is for my mumsy and pupsy:)

Being an authentic Kelantanese, we took PRIDE to come from the same state as Zang Toi, the Kuala Krai born, world renowned fashion designer! When Lilian had the opportunity to be his fashion intern there, we went...WOAH...you must be joking..it's ZANG you know! :)
FACT IS, yups SHE WAS THERE for a good 6 months!
Lilian made it yo :)

And Thanks to her, during my recent visit to NYC, we were given a golden ticket to visit to his studio right in the middle of Fifth Avenue, Manhattan! Let me show you his EMPIRE in New York CITY! a sneak peak into his workplace!Super proud of this up and coming fashionista :)

Black and white themed studio...ELEGANCE!as you walk down the stairs, there is an array of Zang's designed clothings which cost thousands USD!!!Beloved dedicated fashion intern, doing her job!
Introducing the recent Fall 2012 Fashion week designs!
The models, the designs, the styles, the musics for the runaway...down to the very minute details are essentials to make the fashion show a success..and Zang knows it ALL inside out!
*look at his SO NEAT looking handwriting!!*
awww...I'm IMPRESSED!
*apparently, he loves writing every details down by himself!*the many AMAZING Zang's masterpieces!being the cheecky us, we sneaked into this 'hidden bedroom' at the back of his studio to snap a pic.
I did some research from his website and it says, this is actually a dressing room because he didn't want an ordinary boring fitting room with rack and mirror, instead all the beautiful clothes are to be laid on this exuberant daybed;)
and on the wall are pictures of this specific Chinese Model- Lin Dan (a Malaysian as well!)
Malaysian's pride again!
Finally, how could we leave his newspapers featured showroom without a group photo:P
Hah, a lifetime experience stepping into Zang's studio.
Unfortunately, the master is not in, that's why the little mice like us were running around freely :)
*I would love to get his signature one day since I don't think I can afford any of his masterpiece:P*

oh having said that, being able to step into his studio was good enough for me personally:)

Keep up the good work, Zang!
We are SO PROUD of you!!






wasSup Doc:
Coco Chanel once said:" I don't do fashion, I am fashion."
*wat say u?*