Ending 2017 and welcoming 2018

2017 has been a roller coaster year.
Thought it all started well until the shocking news of my beloved grandma passed away, it shook me completely and I just want to escape the fact that she has left.

I see life differently.
Life is too fragile.
I just want to leave this country that everybody thought is a future for me, my career, better life, better pay. But honestly, I still struggle to see myself working back home. I don't know if I can do it.
I am in great dilemma.
Putting this thought aside until I finished my 2 years of remaining training years.

Highlights of the year?
Loads and loads of travelling. It is an experience of a lifetime, nobody will grab that experience away for you, it is priceless and I am thankful that I can afford to do this. Seeing world is my priority.

Went back Malaysia 3 times! Breaking record...
Went to Portugal with Ruth for my 30th birthday in March.
Went to Korea with Janice and Chia Wei during April.
Went to Belgium to catch up with Ivy in May, then Chester for Laura's wedding.
Went to Penang with my family in June
Went to Oxford to attend Hana's wedding in July
Went to Belfast in August with Lily for our 30th birthday escape
Moved from Lancaster to Preston in September
Flew back to Malaysia in November.
Went to Singapore and visited my sis, met Leonard, saw Ivy/Eric/Eeleen
Went to Cambodia in December for JQ and Steve's wedding.

Phew, long list, but thankful for trips like these. Catch up with close friends and I never know when I have the chance to see them again. The Lord might call me home anytime soon.

Time is precious, no more waiting because time wait for no man.
It is either do it now or don't!

Just hoping 2018, to be a better year.
Ending 2017 with a high note.
Yes, officially a home owner :)
I.e. owning my very own 1st property!
Bought a house with my own savings! Parents offered to help but I wanted to do this myself.
I am a grown up. So yes, I have a mortgage to pay!
Can't be quitting my job now, although current hospital, Blackpool Victoria is a serious nightmare.

Anyway, having my own place is still an achievement, I must say.

Turned 30th this year and dear God, please continue to watch over me.

Watssup Doc: Although no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. I am looking forward to the 365 chances to make my 2018 a good one. 

[Be humble and kind]

Supermarket Flowers

"Supermarket Flowers"

I took the supermarket flowers from the windowsill
Threw the day old tea from the cup
Packed up the photo album Matthew had made
Memories of a life that's been loved

Took the get well soon cards and stuffed animals
Poured the old ginger beer down the sink
Dad always told me don't you cry when you're down
But mum there's a tear every time that I blink

Oh I'm in pieces it's tearing me up but I know
A heart that's broke is a heart that's been loved

So I'll sing Hallelujah, you were an angel in the shape of my mum
When I fell down you'd be there holding me up
Spread your wings as you go
And when God takes you back
He'll say Hallelujah, you're home

I fluffed the pillows, made the beds, stacked the chairs up
Folded your nightgowns neatly in a case
John said he'd drive, then put his hand on my cheek
And wiped a tear from the side of my face

I hope that I see the world as you did cause I know
A life with love is a life that's been lived
So I'll sing Hallelujah, you were an angel in the shape of my mum
When I fell down you'd be there holding me up
Spread your wings as you go, when God takes you back
He'll say Hallelujah, you're home

Hallelujah, you were an angel in the shape of my mum
You got to see the person that I have become
Spread your wings and I know
That when God took you back, he said Hallelujah you're home

The closing track of Ed Sheeran's latest album.

It was written for his grandmother when she passed away whilst he was in his studio.

The words, were so raw and coincide with my thoughts especially the chorus of him saying 'I will sing Hallelujah, you were an angel in the shape of my mum.

And when God takes you back, He'll say Hallelujah, you're home'

Everything became so real again.

Almost a month and my tears still flow in pain when I think of her.



Ivy sent me this card recently. So timely. And a good reminder.

When I cant really utter my words to the Lord.

Lord, with all the tears that overflown, I pray that You watch over her dearly. 

I look forward to the day in heaven.

Side note: THANK GOD, finally completed my essays for my masters programme.

Submitting today.

Hoping for a pass.

WasSup Doc: Never thought supermarket flowers is going to be such beautiful thing now.
 

Sudden goodbye....

I was oncall that very morning when I suddenly received a message from mum to our family chat group that my cousin called and said my maternal grandma complained of severe headache and vomited.


I initially thought, they are on their way to hospital, should be ok.
I continue running my med reg job in ED, saving lives, finish up the clerking, post taking, do bloods and try to clear the board of so many medical patients to be seen.


Next message I received was, grandma loss consciousness on the way to hospital. She had difficulties in breathing, doctor is resuscitating her. The symptoms sounded so familiar.... So typical of what I normally see at work. Sudden headache, reduced GCS, collapsed....and the next will be... death.
I knew straight away, it didn't look promising.


Replied mum and said... didn't look good mum.
And I knew, mum was crying hysterically already. She was waiting my brother to fetch her to rush to hospital in Melacca to say her last goodbye, but it is all too late when she arrived....


Me on the other side, just managed some lunch when I received a call from my brother, crying hysterically about the sudden death of this beloved grandma of mine.
This was not an expected death.
She was so fine, besides some aches and pain, she showed no illness.
Still prodding around at home, helping to cook yummy delicious dinners, washing, cleaning and independent in her daily activities. She needs no help!


I just could not believe this at all. My grandma whom promised to see me gets married and have kids is now... left! My tears kept flowing like waterfall. I knew I couldn't continue my work that day.
Thank God my consultant caught me and sat me aside. She reassured me that things will be fine. Just go home if need to. Spoke to my educational supervisor quickly who happened to be consultant oncall, approved my emergency leave and off I went.
4pm reached home. Took my passport and visa. Packed some dark coloured clothes.
430pm, jumped on the train and zoomed to airport.
The whole journey was such a torture, I just kept crying and the man sitting infront of me turned around wondering what was wrong. I just kept quiet and let the tears flow.
9pm, got the earliest flight and flew back home...


Probably the worse journey ever. I always looked forward to going home, but this 17 hours, was nothing but cry sleep eat cry and repeat. The heartache and pain is just indescribable. Only God knows.... why He called her home so suddenly when none of us were prepared at all.


Cousin was just saying, granny was cutting rice cakes that very evening to bring back to KL home because my brother and sister love to eat them. She is always knowing what we like and not. She wasn't expecting this goodbye as well. So WHY...she was called home? I now wonder a lot!


People might say she is already old. Yeah 88 years old to be exact, but she wasn't a frail 88 who is bedbound, demented and needing carers! Her memory is spot on. She has been very well. The last time I saw her was last November when I went back. How I wished I have called her and tell her I will see her soon in June when I go back. I wished I could hold her wrinkly hands again, sitting next to her and talk everything under the sun, accompany her to eat her favourite luicha. I have so many regrets that I wished I could fulfil them before saying this goodbye.


The main reason why it hurts so much, mainly for my family because she literally raised us up since baby. She lived with us for 35 years( since Darren was born). She knew our likes and don't likes. Our habits, our attitude, everything inside out. She is like our 2nd mummy. Every trip I am back, she would make the very effort to cook my favourite chicken rice, or assam fish. She would spend whole day cooking, with her secret recipe that start from scratch. My sister was just saying the other day when she made Chinese ZhongZi, she remembers the content of it that we like, so in total, she had to wrap probably 5-6 different types based on our likes( with meat, with fattypork, with more chestnut, with sotong...) She execute them all perfectly. Because she aims to make us happy.


When she left us suddenly like this, it feels a previous person of ours has been robbed, cruelly and no return. I hope she is at a better place now. A place she is happier. A place with no pain and tears. Tears still flow in secret everytime I thought about her. Lord, heal this broken heart and may her soul rest in peace. I looked forward to see her again in heave. I miss her already.

 

I will remember the day I arrived and saw her body in the coffin. Sleeping peacefully, my heart sank.

I hope she is resting well now.

 

The final sent off of my beloved granny.

The song played by the pancaragam was....

'What a friend we have in Jesus'

And it is comforting, although the whole ceremony was in Buddhism style, our initial greatest fear was if she is with the Lord.

Before she died, she told us she dreamt of Jesus, she prayed to Jesus.

But we weren't very sure if salvation was upon her.

Having to know God publicly proclaim His presence here, we as a family found peace, for we know, we will reunite with her in Heaven, once day.

My final selfie with grandma.

x I really miss her x

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Literally, a week later.

My paternal grandma was called to be with the Lord as well.

My family is still grieving over my maternal grandma, we are hit again by the 2nd wave of paternal grandma deteriorated in the hospital and died.

She is known to have dementia, rather frail. Had urosepsis and antibiotics haven't been effective.

Dad was devastated. I heard sis said he cried.

I wished I could be there to comfort him.

But before I left, he said it is ok not to go back, also because he is worried my training will be affected, and didn't want me to travel to and fro like that.

Now I hate being away from home like this.

I really hope, in critical time like this, I am able to pray and be with them physically.

So what I can save lives here, but not being able to give support to my family back home.

It's meaningless..

This was taken 2 weeks before grandma was brought into hospital.

Kiefer's first encounter with his 2nd Taima.

He lost 2 greatgrandmas too.

Little boy didn't know much.

When we asked where was taima, he said....

'sleeping in the box'

Innocence but true fact.

Staff at workplace, bought me this. How thoughtful.

Lily, came visit and brought me a bunch of tulips.

Just looking at them just bring so much comfort.

Really appreciate all messages and kind thoughts from friends near and far.

When situation is getting so hard to bear, I give thanks that the Lord provide friends who will be there to support me through this difficult period of time.

WasSup Doc: It is well, with my soul. May their souls rest in peace with you Lord. Please comfort my family members who have to go through 2 bereavements back to back. Help us to stay strong as a family, and we trust that all this happened for a good reason.

CNY celebrations continue...

Time really flies, a week gone and CNY celebration is half way there.


Highlight of this week, CHANGED OVER!
Yes, I am not registrar to the general medicine team.
Worked along with Dr C and Dr Mc at present.
So far, so good.


Even had to drive Dr C back to Lancaster on my first day of work in Kendal.
That was a complete challenge!
Thank goodness, we arrived safely and my little car DID NOT stop in the middle of the road...Phew!


Another highlight was THIS!

Yups, met up with Cher Chyi in Manchester.

We didn't see each other for... 13 years since graduating from high school!

WOW.....

Really amazing how we could talk and laughed over life.

Spent 3 hours talking and just updating each other about respective lives.

Really appreciate how she trusted me fully and speak so honestly.

Twas was an amazing catch up.

Looked forward to another reunion when SQ send her back here AGAIN!

and then the feast continue..

Thanks to Sai and Joyce for putting up such yummy dinner for me.

Newton Close minions :)

Look at these...

Even yeesang was there.

** I ate 2 bowls to rice..... not shy**

OOpsie...

I am blessed with good friends.

WasSup Doc: Enjoy the little things in life, as when you look back later, you will realise they are BIG THINGS.

Live to fullest~! 💗

Happy CNY... Year of Rooster

This year is the year of Rooster.


Because I took some leave in December, and left a few more weeks in acute stroke team, I dare not ask for more leave.


Therefore, when the CNY mood arrived, I was so emotionally down.
Felt left out once more.
I want to be at home, eating reunion dinner with my fambam.
Although we dun do much, it is still a nice sense of happiness, being surrounded by loved ones.


So this year, I didn't get to go back.
Reunion dinner, spent at home, eating pasta myself after a long day at work.
Managed to squeeze in a gym class at least. Felt better post work out.


Then Saturday came, the BIG 1st day of celebration.
Put on my red shirt.
Off I went to Lily's House for our annual reunion... just the 3 of us.
Steamboat it was.
Went and watch LaLa Land prior to dinner. It's been a very time since we went for a movie together.
It was a good movie, as expected. But ending was a whee bit unexpected but it was reality.
Lily felt it too.


"There was once, you both had big dreams. You share it with your very loved one. You encouraged each other to pursue that dream. And when opportunities come, you grabbed it, worked hard for it, pursued it, achieved it BUT.... the person whom you shared your dream with is no longer the same.... Life, moves on. You wished you could turn back that clock, you wished the outcome would be a different ending of happy ever after. Reality is a complete different ending unfortunately..... "


Anyway, it was still a nice movie, with sweet musical songs..... and telling you to chase your dreams, NO MATTER WHAT!

Our reunion dinner. Yums

Trio, sisters in Manchester since 2008.

Red is the ANG ANG colour for CNY.

Have a blessed year ahead, all.

Dearest daughters( us 3) didn't get to go back this year, but our hearts are with you all.

Love and blessings.

WasSup Doc: “Just as you usher in lights, lanterns and other forms of illuminations to welcome the New Year, may the New Year usher in for you new hopes, dreams and aspirations."

GurlieS SaturDate

Been busy with work recently.
Ward has been really busy but it was good.


Counting down days to change over now.
Oh dear, am not really looking forward to be fair.
The Chedders and Gowie's team hmmm.... no idea how I will work with them.
Lord, please grant me patient heart.


Anyway, managed to squeeze an afternoon off to have some yummy food with Janice and Joyce.
It was 50% off, so great deal this :)

The few things we shared. They come in Tapas style.

This sharing platter with fried seafood. Yums

My favourite dish. The Tuscan fish stew with clams and mussels. Very fresh!

And our beloved dessert was THIS. Bomb! Pistachio cake. Seriously good stuff!

Finally, a group pic of us :)

Great day out. A long needed break.

Laughs and chats.

All done.

Back to Lancaster.

Serious work starts tomorrow.

WasSup Doc: "Don't worry if people think you're crazy. You are crazy. You have that kind of intoxicating insanity that lets other people dream outside of the lines and become who they're destined to be."

-Jennifer Elisabeth-

TOP of the mountain

Feeling extremely GREAT today because I have achieved something that never happened to me for the SO MANY Lumbar Puncture performed since CMT 1!




When the lady from the lab called me....
I kinda like..SSHOCKED in disbelief!
Wow..... CHAMPAGNE Tap this!
Literally want to fly. Hahaha
HAPPY daoo...



Anyway, been a real busy day today with TIA patients in clinic. But Dr Kumar been a great help.
We cleared them up quick, did a ward round in CCU and then off I went to do this LP.




Then the nightmare news of x2 of my SHOs called in sick!😭 Which means, I will be the FY1, SHO, Registrar and maybe some senior input elsewhere. 1 man show this! Terrible...for the whole ward.






Worse thing that could happen on a Monday morning. No wonder today is labelled as Black Monday. but thank God, I survived. Things were done accordingly and no patients were compromised. We managed.
When you start off the day right, surrendering everything into His mighty hands. Things will turn out FINE. Today is a great day. ** I was a bit stress about doing the LP initially. But hey ho, managed it with my first attempt anyway. GREAT!






wasSup Doc: Everyday is a new day that the Lord has made, we shall rejoice in it! Thank You Lord :)

If only..

One day, maybe... that one day you would remember who I am.

Just wanted to say this....

💛MSYU VMVM💛

Is this how it looked like?

We never got round eating this ey 😋

*putting an end to this.......**

WasSup Doc:  There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear 1 John 4:18

Greetings of 2017

A new resolution for 2017, I guess.
To re-start writing or pen down some thoughts of mine.


Hello world.
It has been a while since my last entry.


Out of curiosity and so revisited the blog I started in 2006 and wow, it still allows me to log in and so, here is it. Writing the 1st post of 2017.


Probably nobody reading it now but hey ho, who cares, a personal read for myself 10 years down the road then.


10 years ago, it was a gungho moment to start writing.
All my beloved Uni mates were writing actively and so I joined the bandwagon of doing so. *NO REGRETS :)*


10 years later, I read all those posts I wrote and realised the importance of penning stuff down and see how much I have grown. emotionally, physically and spiritually.


A little bit of wrinkles here and there, but that just telling me that I have been through up and down.
Here I am, still alive and well, by God's amazing grace.

Goodbye 2016. Hello 2017

WasSup Doc: Take a leap of faith and begin this wondrous new year by believing. Believe in yourself. And believe that there is a loving Source- a Sower of Dreams - Just waiting to be asked to help you make your dreams come true.

What was the MIRACLE?

This was it. Had a few friends asking what was the miracle that I mentioned in FB the other day and thought I would just penned it down on my blog, reminding myself as well about His goodness and He answered my prayer in my little prayer book :]

A project about patients' safety was accepted by an international health forum in London for a poster presentation last month. Praise the Lord for this oppotunity, but at the sametime, it was a huge dilemma for my colleague and myself who are keen to go, because the course fees itself cost a BOMB! a 3 days course cost £917 per person and bear in mind, this is just the course fees. Not including the accomodation, transport fare, and meals, it's LONDON we are talking here ey. But after much discussion, we decided to just go for it anyway because it is a once in a lifetime opportunity, how often does our work get recognised? Ermm, very unlikely I guess, unless you have a successful project with very influential supervisor. In the end we decided tp pay the course fees using our own pocket money, just waiting to attend the forum in April 2013 then. Informed Mel that I will be bunking at hers whilst am there to save cost :P

Just last week, I received an email from the supervisor who oversees us about thie project. He delivered a GOOD news to us, saying that Wigan NHS trust is willing to sponsor us to attend this forum AND accomodation included. Rubbed my eyes and read again, yes, it is correct. The trust is going to fund for us to attend this course and covering the 3 days accomodation as well. Wow WOW WOOWW!! *background info: If you have not already known, NHS in the UK is having financial crisis, with million of debts, to get anything funded, chances are near to zero. Can be described like squeezing water from a stone. The main aim of most trusts at present is to cut cost, save money, reduce admissions. Each and every penny is CRUCIAL to them!* So to get it FULLY funded, it's definitely a God's intervention. PLUS, I remembered writing in down last month on my prayer request book: Sponsorship to IHI forum. Viola, God just performed a miracle for me. *ticked* Uber awesome mowseome! He has indeed looked after me well :)

So peeps, note of encouragement. Ask and you will receive. He might not answer your prayer immediately, but in His time. So ASK and BELIEVE. :)

xx When all you have is Jesus, He is all you need xx

WasSup Doc: Statement above ;)

Sunday JOY..

I look forward to Sundays:) A day we can go to church and meet God's people, sing His praises and worship Him. Also, seeing my lovely kiddies in Sunday School. Guess it's one RIGHT decision I made this academic year, to serve Him in this ministry! The joy of seeing them learn about God, remembering bible verses and the conversations we shared over one and half hours, it's just bliss to me. 

Lunch time with kiddies, precious. The lunch bags unite:)

Before class starts, the children will have their lunch break in the canteen. Most of them have their lunch packed nicely by their dedicated mums. Me being the 'little kid wanna be' would packed my own lunch and tucked it into my lovely lunch bag [am SO INTO Lunch bags now, oh dear me, obsessed!] and share this precious time, eating with them, having small chit chat sessions about how their week went and comparing our food:P We would talk about the biggest fish in the sea, their Mandarin classes, and spicy seaweed they are munching! Muakakkkaa...fun times.com!

Right, just a small sharing about my class today. I am teaching class 1 at the moment (5-6 years old). Lesson today was about Abraham, and I had to teach them the song 'Father Abraham' with ACTIONS! Hahahaha...right arm, left arm, right leg, left leg, chin up and turn around..a good workout for me but kids were so enthu and energetic! Must admit, me is one old woman, after 2 rounds of the song, am breathless! Blame on me have to sing out loud and shout and action! Multitasking but oh my my, i had so much fun! It's been a while. To see the kids smile, the laughter, the joy in them and singing God's songs is just bliss. 

On top of that, when a child unexpectedly could recite word for word of a bible verse I taught last week caught me by surprise that he actually could remember!! Sherlyn just randomly asked the class:' Who can remember the verse we learned last week.' This 5 years old Chinese boy in class, *not paying attention in class most of the time as he was playing with his friend* quickly raised his hands and answered " We will serve the Lord our God, we will obey Him, Joshua 24:24!!! And that kept Sherlyn and myself speechless and jaw wide opened..WOW, 5 stars for you, Jordie! NOTE, he is just 5! ;) Effort paid off!

So class ended with some bible stories and drawings. The best part is, these small little tiny kids, will drag their big bulky fleece coat [thanks to UK cold weather!] and trying to put them on, so me being the mummy will go up to them and zip up for them, putting on their hats and gloves, and reminding them to be a good boy/girl this coming week and rmb to pray! With their still soft voices, they will reply 'Yes miss. See you!' Awww....heart melts 99! Kill me, kill me, kill me. They are so adorable!

Sometimes, it really needs the faith of a child to remind me that's all I need to trust and believe God, who can do all things for me. Sunday school is where I myself is learning more about Christ, His people and how His promises are REAL. I <3 font="font" nbsp="nbsp" school="school" sunday="sunday">

WasSup Doc: We will serve the Lord our God, we will obey Him. Joshua 24:24. Give me a patient heart, to serve you in this ministry :)

I'm coming home!

It's official, it's confirmed:) 

I AM COMING home to Malaysia for Chinese New Year! Hooray...

Say I am spoilt, say I am wasting money$$, 3 months apart and I am going back again.

oh who cares, I do not want to be staying alone in this freezing country celebrating CNY alone! *Bluek*!

Cant wait to make noise with the TEO FAM, and eat the glorious CNY food! 

excited.com :)

Cant wait to see this signboard AGAIN at KLIA!

 HAPPIEST decision made :)

But before that, few job interviews to conquer! 

Smile, HE holds my future ^_^

wasSup Doc: 'Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.' Proverbs 16:3.

It's the verse of the day on my phone. Timely indeed :D

Dissapointed with myself..

It has been a maniac day at GP surgery today. Full clinic for morning and afternoon sessions.

Got home about 615pm, when I was supposed to finish at 5pm.

Had to walk 45 minutes under the rain to visit a 90 years old lady. Despite had to go through this pathetic weather, glad that when I leave her home, she still smile and wave me goodbye. That's all matters.

But on top of that, something else happened today and it wasn't pleasant :'(

It just broke my heart and being qualified for almost a year half now, missing something important when examining a patient wasn't a good feeling at all. felt so sorry for the patient and wished I could have done better. Let myself down tremendously.

Everyday when I go to work, I am reminded that God has given me these hands to touch lives and to bless others. I aimed NOT to bring harm to the patients I see but to bring them comfort and peace.

 A joyful heart, that's all I need to start my day off!

wasSup Doc: oh Lord, enable me to fulfill my medical calling in love, wisdom and integrity. Grant me sincerity in all that I say and do. Strengthen me to persevere in the face of fatigue. Lead me by Your spirit in my daily work.

ANNOYED!!

Cant help but just have to SCREAM MY LUNGS out, because of being uber annoyed with my programme coordinator!

Asked my GP practice manager if I can combined 2 of my half days to become one OFF day, so that I can extend my stay(from 12 days to 14 days) back in Malaysia when I return in Feb, and she has kindly said 'not a problem'! Then she thought, hmm, maybe she should ask my programme coordinator.

Next reply my practice manager got from my programme director was that 'NO, Angelene is not allowed to do so because it will then breach her working hours for the week!"

So my practice manager came and apologies for not double checking with her earlier! *Speechless me*!

Oh my goodness, breach my working hours!? Oh Please, GP posting is the chillest posting EVER, u only work 9-5pm, weekdays and gets Wednesday off for teaching and Thursday OFF doing NOTHING. All I requested was to work through all my Thursday, so that I can combined my half days and become one FULL DAY OFF! What is so difficult with that? I am paying back the working hours! It's not like I am skyving or being lazy, I AM PROPERLY working my hours and paying them proper. Now you worried I am OVERWORK in a 9-5pm, office like setting job?! Seriously...patient's safety is NOT compromised at all!

Just little request as such, you have made into such big hoohaa and forwarded to my programme director!? Arghh.....do you need to do that, honestly? Everybody in the whole trust IS, ALREADY DONE that and now you say NOO! SUPER FRUSTRATED. Somebody KILL ME ALIVE! Want to cry but patients still waiting for me to be seen. Life oh life..God why You put such hurdle in my life at this point of time. I really dun and will never get it. 

Don't mess around with me, I am not easily being bullied! *Roar!*

 FRUSTRATIONS 99!!

waSsup Doc: Trying to understand is like straining through muddy water. Be still and allow the mud to settle. I am learning. 

Reflections of 2012

2012 gone by so quick and it's already... HELLO 2013!! Just thought of penning down some highlights of 2012, so that when I look back about the happenings within this year, it's gonna be a bitter sweet moment! Right, let's begin with some fun and exciting things I did throughout the year of 2012. No doubt, the EXTENSIVE traveling experiences TOPPED the chart!

HOLIDAYs are always the FUNNEST!

The trio started the year, invading Budapest, Hungary. Braving through the extreme weather, we shared so much laughter together:)

During the second month, we organised a trip down south, to explore the legendary Stonenage & Stratford-upon-Avon. Also, trip ended with a nice visit to this limestones town, called Cotswolds.

Gurls just want to have fun!!! Strictly for gurls' fellowship only! Train ride to Llandudno, up to WALES! Adventurous indeed!

Fun-filled roadtrip all the way to CORNWALL with the most amazing church mates! OGs ROCKS!

THE MUST MENTION, lifetime dream came true moment, when all the picturesque pics of Niagara Falls lied just infront of my eyes! *in awe of His beautiful creation*

Stepped into the GIANT CITY, NEW YORK! Woah, never in my right mind would think I am going to this city so soon, but there you go, never say never! Thanks to Lily's sister graduation during this summer and viola, a good reason to invade!

The whole year ended with a trip to Krabi with family! Highlight of course, quality time spent back home, catching up with friends and family, no doubt will be the BEST holiday of all:)

Achievements of the year

FINALLY! Passed my UK driving test..ehem, it's MANUAL k! I think i took a good 3 months to polish up my driving skills after not driving for a good 6 years! Very proud of myself, but in the sametime, meaning burning a hole in my pocket because the lessons are so uber EXPENSIVE! 

Successfully completed first year of houseman and moved on to becoming a second year doctor! Despite the heavier responsibility that we have to bear, work is always never ending fun. With loads of unexpected experience and opportunities, I could only give ALL GLORY to God who has opened doors for me. Of course there are low moments, stress and extra working hours to whine about, but where on earth there is job in this world that just requires u sitting in the office and do nothing, right!

Very pleased to finally get the Medics Fellowship kick starting. We are just a bunch of doctors, wanting to keep each other accountable, and walk a close spiritual journey with God. Glad that everybody is keen on this, and we're taking baby steps to explore the great adventure God has instored for us!

A neonatal audit that I participated with Dr Zipitis was nominated for 'Recognising Excellence Award' organised by the hospital. No expectations of course, but attended the gala dinner just for mere experience. But subsequently the similar audit won a runner-up place in another local trust event- Best Clinical Audit event! If you were to ask me whether I have high hope when I first started doing this audit, I would say NO, then again who am I to say NO when our Father said YES! There you go...He is in control!

Farewell moments

Saying 'goodbye' to this lad wasn't easy. Cheah is like my little brother in Manchester. He would call me 'DaJe' in church and has been a great help throughout the past 4 years. Everytime I ask for a favour, he would be the first to say 'Yes'. Could rmb vividly he is the one who has been helping me moving stuff from one place to another, EVEN as far as to Wigan! :'( He graduated this year and decided to go back Malaysia. Best wishes, Cheah!

Year 2012 ended with a BANG, celebrated this big day with some close friends from church. Cooking for such big crowd was not easy but managed it well in the end and it was SO WORTH IT. It will never be the same if there weren't these people who has made my life in Manchester easier, FUN-er, and noisier :)

A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, can be my world. THANK YOU, guys for being such amazing friends!

Righty HO! There goes some highlights of year 2012!

I personally think that 2012 has been a great year, with loads of exciting moments and have grown spiritually closer with God. He has been really faithful, granting favours upon me, allowing me to meet amazing people who has given me much support throughout this journey. Many thanks for the prayers uttered for me. Can't wait to see how 2013 will be but pretty sure it is going to be another year full of grace and His favours. Things are just getting BETTER each year, ey! Be positive because God is a loving God!

The verse that I cling on tightly is from the book of Psalm 130:5- "I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in His word I put my hope. My souls waits for the Lord."



wasSup Doc:
Cheers to 2012. So, let's stir some FIRE into year 2013!
SHOUT AND REJOICE!

Family time..

I just came back from Malaysia...about a month ago? And now, I am thinking and planning to go back again. It's always good to be home. Just staying at home is pure joy! But need to save up some money first before next return!

Back to the cold gloomy Manchester now. Sky gets dark at 4pm. Not nice..and have to wear like 4 layers out now..burr..5th year in the UK, and still not getting use to this freezing weather.

Lurve them much!

So what am I up so far...this phase of my life is..TRUSTING GOD.

Obs and Gyn is coming to an end. After 4 months of constant on calls..I actually enjoys the adrenaline rush moments in labour ward! I was scared when pregnant mumsies come through that door for reassurance that their babies are fine..when breaking that bad news of miscarriage was terrifying. But over the months I learned that God gives and takes away, there is nothing the mum can do differently to salvage that pregnancy. All I have to do is comfort them and provide them with emotional support.

Lurve this job, but oh no, am not going to do this as a career, it's just too much of legal issues revolving around this specialty..Muakkakaka

Now coming back to the theme of trusting God.

Job application for next academic year opens!Oh this really have to rely on His grace for provision, for open doors. Questions on that applciation form are just so complicated... :( So yea, will have to trust in Him for His provision, He is Jehovah Jireh, our provider, so yups, He already has the BEST job prepared for me:) 'Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge' Psalm 62:8 

 1st ever group pic of MCCC Medics:) We're starting a fellowship group in MCCC. We have medicine as common background, and we decided to come together as a body of Christ to support each other spiritually in our walk with God. We are taking baby steps in this, but hopefully we are able to experience God as one group, bringing glory to His kingdom, and empower ourselves with His goodness and mercy. Let's pray things will go well and we are able to meet regularly despite the busy schedule we all have! :D

Wokay, better get back to work now:) It's been great shout out here!

Had a great night out with my fellow Wiganers @ Nando's, our favourite hang out place, with loads of secrets shared! Just amazing how you can find amazing friends with similar interests and just LOL whole night! Love you guys, loads!





WasSup Doc: Trust and Obey..for there's no other way, but to TRUST and OBEY HIM!

TIME flies...!

Indeed, this one year passed by SO QUICK! I'm done for my first year as a DR, and officially received my GMC registration! Phew..thank GOD for His faithfulness! I don't think I can survive this whole year without His grace. It's been a whole new of experience, taking the full responsibility as a Dr and managing human LIVES. A great one year, finding feet in this MEDICAL world and learning to be more confident in making decisions and equipping myself with up-to-date knowledge!

My beloved colleague in Breast team, Cat! A great person to work with!
Efficient, quick and most importantly very reliable! I was so touched when she rushed back from Pre-op clinic to hospital, just to give me a hand when she realised poor me had to cover the whole ward all by myself!

4 months in Breast and General surgery was the BEST time I had! The consultants I worked with were the friendliest surgeons I have ever met.

As a celebration, the Wiganers FY1s had a mini gathering and pub quiz!The gamemasters: Anthony and Tom!

One of their question was this:
" Angelene Teo is a beautiful name, but anyone knows what does TEO mean?"
When I heard that question, I was stunned..that is my surname and i myself have no idea what it meant! That's my great-grandfather's surname..any meaning? Hah...I dun think so!
But GUESS WHAT, they found out that...TEO in Greek means Gift of God! How amazing is that! :)
My team..AWESOME BADASS!
Had a fun night out with my fellow colleagues as a 'graduation' of our first year FY~! Well done guys! :)


Officially an SHO in Obs&Gyn. Guess what, am starting my night shifts next week and boy that is so going to be GG.com because me being the old lady will start yawning by 11pm! How am I going to stay up whole night and run around in hospital reviewing sickies...but I think the adrenaline rush I get from the numerous bleep will keep me awake! My biology clock gonna be maniac soon!
Please keep me in prayer, will ya! oh Lord, cover me with strength to sustain this whole one week.

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Had an indoor picnic at Uncle Seng Yang's house last Sunday. Made some simple tuna maki rolls for the group. It has been ages since I last made one but all in all, SATISFACTORY outcome:)
How I wish British summer is longer and SUNNIER. Didnt have a chance for an outdoor BBQ this year! :'(
Thanks to the wet rain and busy weekends commitment.

i like sushi.com!

hmmm...thought of the week:
Been watching Masterchef Australia lately. Somehow wished I am a good cook. Feel like enrolling myself in a cooking course and learned the skills to be a proffesional chef! I want to cook like Emmanuel Stroobant! His slick skills in cutting the leek, the seriousness pierced through those eyes, dishing up the perfect plate of appetizer..am in love with him! :P *in my dream*I did try...Braised teriyaki salmon with roasted peppered asparagus! Haha..simple lar, starting my baby steps in cooking! *pat myself on the shoulder*
By the way, worth to mention about a giveaway from Bento USA. Click this link-> All things for Sale for further rules regarding the AMAZING, GENEROUS gifts they are offering. Useful kits for packing lunch:)

Anyway, back to reality. Olympics fever is all over UK! Yesh..in my heart I am supporting the CHINESE! Lol...swimmer YeShiWen is amazingly SLICK! In the meantime, praying hard for Datuk Lee to win a GOLD Medal for Msia in badminton and make history! Malaysia Boleh!

wokay. It's weekend and I am loving it because it's time to SKYPE with my parents back home. Love them to bits! If it wasnt for my job, I will be home by NOW! :'(





wasSup Doc: "And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.-Galatians 6:9"